What is wrong with me??? I have cried three times today and it isn't even noon yet!! I am just an emotional mess right now and it is driving me crazy!! You have to understand my past in order to know that this is totally out of the ordinary for me! I always thought that PMS was a myth and that women who complained of cramps and had mood swings just used it as an excuse to be extremely bitchy. I was never emotional, moody, or crampy during my cycle...maybe that should've been a clue that something is wrong with me. But now that I have these drugs in my body...they are making me crazy!!
Here is my conversation with Andrew last night as we are lying in bed:
Me: "I think I need to cry."
Andrew: rolls over and cuddles me "Why do you feel like crying?"
Me: Tears start flowing "I am crying because I don't want to cry!"
Andrew: laughing...sort of
Me: "I am trying so hard to not let these drugs take over my body...and here they are...taking over my body...making me cry!"
Isn't that ridiculous??? Then, I have cried three more times today over silly things!! So, be careful when you see me next time and have a tissue ready because you never know what might set me off and have the tears flowing!
P.S. This blog may seem really sad and negative lately, but you'll have to cut me some slack because I am an emotional mess (I blame the drugs!). I really wish I had a step-by-step IVF blog to read to tell me what side effects were coming next and how I am going to feel every step of the way. I just hope that this blog can help the next person going through in-vitro understand what their body is going through.
1 comment:
Praying for you Sara. And don't apologize for your blog being negative! Don't ever apologize. You have every right to be frustrated and hurting and crying and angry and negative! Just try to think of a positive every little bit to keep that sunshine with your!
Andrew is a true gem! Smile because of that!
Keep going, Sara! I'm praying and smiling for you and for what's to come!
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