We have at least two more months of waiting before we find out if this whole in-vitro process “worked”. Two months seems like forever!! It has already been two months since we found out that IVF is our only option, but still….TIME MOVES SO SLOW when you are infertile. Seriously…I can’t wait to have my period this month (I know…too much information!) because that means this whole process gets to finally begin!
Then I started thinking….
I want time to move sooo fast right now, but then I realize that I have already lived 1/3 of my life already (I know...optimistic, right?!). I often look back and think, gosh…I wish I could go back to when I was in middle school/ highschool/college/ect...life was so much easier then! During every phase in your life you think “This is the worst! Life is so hard!”, but now looking back I think “Wow…that was nothing compared to what I am going through now!” Do you think I will feel that way in ten years when I look back at this point in my life?
For example….
-In elementary school you think your life is so difficult because you have a spelling test, can’t read very well, or got in trouble at recess.
-In Middle school you think it is the end of the world because you lose a softball game, start your period, get a zit, or got in a fight with your girl friends.
-In high school you worry about who is going to ask you to the dance, fights with girl friends or boyfriends, deal with peer pressure or obsess with what you look like.
- In college you are stressed about homework, classes, exams, speeches, balancing your social life and school, money, dating, etc. (Oh my goodness…how I wish I could go back to college now! It was so GREAT and I didn’t even realize it then!)
-In your early 20’s you worry about getting a job, making enough money, finding a place to live, wedding planning, etc.
-In OUR late 20’s we are concerned about terminally ill family members, the future, and infertility.
So, will I ever miss this moment in my life? Maybe I will. Maybe I won’t. All I know is that I have to live in this moment and enjoy my NOW (child or no child) before it goes by too fast!
“If we can trust God with our eternity, we have to trust God with our now.”
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And in 10 years from now? A whole new set of worries & concerns but you've made it through the rest of them and just like you said.. you'll look back and think that was nothing compared to what I'm going through now! You'll be tough as hell by then :)
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