T'was the night before embryo transfer.....

T’was the night before embryo transfer…and all through the house….not a creature was sleeping…not even my spouse…

The big day is finally here! It seems surreal and odd that TOMORROW IS THE DAY! I haven’t been very excited, or nervous, or anything really. I am pretty nonchalant about it all…maybe because I am trying to protect myself emotionally, who knows? I am “okay” with the situation no matter what the outcome is. Obviously I REALLY want the result to be WONDERFUL, but I am also “okay” if it turns out otherwise (HA…ask me that in two weeks though!!) I guess I don’t want to get my hopes up because I know an FET (frozen embryo transfer) has lower odds of success and I have learned that in-vitro doesn’t always go as planned (hence, the last six months of my life)….but I am confident that something will work eventually. We WILL have kids of our own someday…I just know it!

We have five frozen embryos in storage and plan on transferring two (Mid Iowa Fertility only lets you transfer two). I was really stressed about having to “throw away” any leftovers we couldn’t transfer. I thought they had to thaw all five embryos (and hope that at least half survive the thaw), transfer two embryos and then throw away the leftovers since you can’t refreeze them. I was having a difficult time accepting the fact that they were going to throw away “our babies”…I mean…they are already embryos! How do you decide which two to transfer and which ones to throw away?? Also, using all five embryos means not having any saved for the future….and we would have to do this whole process over again in a couple of years! AHH! BUT luckily I called the clinic and they told me how it is done…

They freeze our embryos in “straws”. Ours are frozen in groups…two in one straw, two in another straw and one embryo in the last straw. On Thursday morning (it only takes a couple hours to thaw the embryos….who knew?? I thought it took days!) they will thaw a straw with two embryos. They check the embryos halfway through the day to see how they are doing and if they are not doing well they can thaw another straw. The embryologist said that their thawing success rate has been really good lately so HOPEFULLY we will have two perfect embryos to transfer and then we will still have some leftover for the future. Pray pray pray that our little embies survive tomorrow!!!

I have been doing all I can to avoid thinking about the “big day” tomorrow. I have kept busy almost every night this week so I don’t have much time to sit and think. Last night we went out with Andrew’s softball team and I drank my last beer (for hopefully 9 months!) and tonight I went out with my softball team even though I couldn’t drink (wow this is going to be a LONG 9 months…hopefully!) Tomorrow morning Andrew and I are going golfing since our embryo transfer isn’t until 2:30 in the afternoon. Hoping this will be the first and last time golfing this summer!

After the transfer is over I will be on strict bedrest for at least 2 full days. As in “you go home…go to your bed and don’t get out of bed for ANYTHING” Although…I think I will still get up for the bathroom (I don’t want to make Andrew THAT miserable). I just started a new book, have recorded some TV shows and have plenty of movies! I am actually somewhat excited for bedrest (ask me at the end of day 2 though!) because I can’t feel guilty about doing nothing.

Anyways, I could write for days, but I don’t want to bore you so if you have any questions…feel free to ask…I don’t mind talking about it. I will update you tomorrow after the transfer and then the dreaded “two week wait” begins until we find out the results. I want to stay really busy during those two weeks so if you want to hang out…give us a call (no drinking of course…but I can always live vicariously through you!) Take care!